i am gonna die

i am officially worn out.
woke up at 9am to study.
till now.
i can't take it.
i am usually not a study person.
so yea. i can't take it
i am so weak.
i know.
i am feeling so sleepy and no more self-discipline.
i hate it when i am distracted.
i can't be distracted. once i am, i will be there for a few minutes.
and there goes the time.
i'll walk here and there to get something to eat.
talk to mom.
sit down. study a little.
walk again.
i can't settle down.
oh my shit head.
a month is left to the major dreadful exams.
its gonna kill me.
i am gonna fall down
and die at the examination hall.
is it too late to panic?
is it too late to study at this point of time?
oh wait.
why am i still sitting here and rant?

=/
i guess i am starting to feel the urgency of the exams
i never will
i guess?
this point of time in my life, is so crucial and important.
i can't screw it.
no i can't
i must not screw it.
once i screw it, there goes my life.
there goes my future.

i am not gonna let laziness overcome me.
i will not let it control me.
i control my life.
and i want my life to be what i want.

now, i am gonna go study
okay i guess i am feeling emo. ):
thank you for taking your time and reading my post.
goodbye world. (: