doomsday. byebye

i can't sleep leh! T.T
tmr must wake up around 730am. and i still don't want to sleep. :/
argh! i can't sleep!
okay. let me blog!

this week will be a busy week if there are new leads.
new rules has been added in. and you know what? it suck.
heissogayandhewalkslikeheisontherunway. -.-
too bad he is not hot. if he is hot, i will admire him and not do my work. too bad!
he can never be hot!

okay. he will listen in to our calls and make sure we don't make that mistake. we cannot go to the customer, "Why not i just send you the voucher and you can consider? If you don't need it, you can don't use it." we can't do that anymore because the yes are mysteriously high. HAHAHA but i do have a few NOs! don't listen to all my calls! you will be shocked. not surprise. cause i talk to customers, is like talking to my friends. "hahaha just take la! don't want to use also never mind!"
omg! i am in so dead shit. ):

everything is so strict now. there was once,
heuseshisgaylyvoicetoscoldus. "Talk somemore and I'll send you home!"
then i rolled back to my seat and started making calls. if i get addicted in making, i will keep making. haha! then my friends all, "wah cassandra so quiet!"
haha i am so not noisy! ):

okay! anyway, february's schedule will be coming out. hehehe i will rest on wednesday and saturday! and this few weeks, will be busy busy busy. i have to go cny shopping. goodies shopping on the next week. and the week after next is almost to cny, have to chiong spring clean! tmr will start doing curtains! ): i shall climb climb climb high high high and hang the new curtains. hehe! i chose damn chio curtains lo. come and see okay! hahahaha!

i can't sleep! give me good tv programmes and i shall stay up all night.

hmm this reminds me of Os. :/ i am so freaking scared right now. i don't think i will be able to sleep the night before the results. -.- or the night before the night before or the night before. i have a bad feeling that i will do badly. i don't think i've studied enough. everything is not enough. its no use regretting now. cause what is done, cannot be undone. my other side of me keeps telling me that, "Its just Os results. Com'on! Relax!" but i can't. the other side of me tells me, "What if i failed? What if i can't get into the course i want? What if i have no where to go? Why didn't i study harder? Why do i always have to regret?" sigh. :/
sigh sigh sigh! i will have disappoint a few people that pinned high hopes on me. not that high, if i work harder, i can reach it. i really want to turn back time and study every second i have. don't want to waste time on breaks. SIGH. the more i think, the more scared i am.
:/ i wanted to cry that other time, when my friend, who doesn't study, gets better results. i don't want to always be a failure. :/ i want to shine. sigh
doomsday is nearing. i really really hope i'd do well.
everyone tells me, if you got study and work hard, what's to worry?
the point is, i don't know whether i studied hard enough and work hard enough. :/ back to point one. everything is not enough.

yea. its always right to pray to God for strength, but not pray for a good life.
if you are strong, every obstacle that blocked you, you will get rid of it. with a good life, you won't learn anything. yea. i should start praying to be strong. :/

hmm please wish me all the best because doomsday is on friday.
thank you and i needed that. :/

thank you for listening/reading!
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